Inspirational title: Lemon Tree by Fool’s Garden
Today was a stale, dull, and lifeless day. My body refused to cooperate when I attempted to get away from the comfort of my bed. I was “sitting [there] in the boring room” as I did almost every other day of this winter break. This whole week has been a ‘leave me alone and let me curl up in a ball forever’ week. I did go outside on New Year’s day, but it was for 5 minutes. I cringed at the minuscule amount of sunlight. I’m becoming photophobic. I’ve been in this same state of lethargy since the break begun. Why am I like this? Why can’t I do something with my life other than just sit around and watch Korean dramas and variety shows? It feels absolutely wonderful to do absolutely nothing. I don’t have to do anything. I don’t need to do anything. I won’t do anything. Let me bask in my ocean of nothingness.
As of today, I picked up another Korean drama, Scent of a Woman. It’s absolutely wonderful. Usually I don’t watch these type of dramas, the type that are for middle-aged (old) people, but I started it; however, my ulterior motive was to see Junsu in episode five. For those who do not know, Junsu is a Korean singer of the Korean group JYJ (former member of DBSK). He’s simply amazing and when I saw him, let’s just say I flipped tables, I threw my hands up in the air and said “AYO!”, and I sobbed. That is what I am like when I fangirl. Only fangirls understand.
Other than that, my day was just a repeat of any other day this slow, lazy winter. My motivation to be productive continues to be eroded by the thought of school looming ahead. I am still as lazy as I was last year; that was the one thing I had wanted to change. Tomorrow will be another day. One of besties is coming over and I am going to be forced to face the sun. I was completely overjoyed when she told me “We’re going to the park.” To be honest, I cried inside. Why must she do this to me? I love her but why?
I believe I’m going to crawl back under my blankets and resume my unrequited relationship with my bed.
Yours truly,
The Sad Lychee (who needs to do something with her life)
All I can say is…I hear ya.