Inspirational title: Lemon Tree by Fool’s Garden
Today was a stale, dull, and lifeless day. My body refused to cooperate when I attempted to get away from the comfort of my bed. I was “sitting [there] in the boring room” as I did almost every other day of this winter break. This whole week has been a ‘leave me alone and let me curl up in a ball forever’ week. I did go outside on New Year’s day, but it was for 5 minutes. I cringed at the minuscule amount of sunlight. I’m becoming photophobic. I’ve been in this same state of lethargy since the break begun. Why am I like this? Why can’t I do something with my life other than just sit around and watch Korean dramas and variety shows? It feels absolutely wonderful to do absolutely nothing. I don’t have to do anything. I don’t need to do anything. I won’t do anything. Let me bask in my ocean of nothingness.
As of today, I picked up another Korean drama, Scent of a Woman. It’s absolutely wonderful. Usually I don’t watch these type of dramas, the type that are for middle-aged (old) people, but I started it; however, my ulterior motive was to see Junsu in episode five. For those who do not know, Junsu is a Korean singer of the Korean group JYJ (former member of DBSK). He’s simply amazing and when I saw him, let’s just say I flipped tables, I threw my hands up in the air and said “AYO!”, and I sobbed. That is what I am like when I fangirl. Only fangirls understand.
Other than that, my day was just a repeat of any other day this slow, lazy winter. My motivation to be productive continues to be eroded by the thought of school looming ahead. I am still as lazy as I was last year; that was the one thing I had wanted to change. Tomorrow will be another day. One of besties is coming over and I am going to be forced to face the sun. I was completely overjoyed when she told me “We’re going to the park.” To be honest, I cried inside. Why must she do this to me? I love her but why?
I believe I’m going to crawl back under my blankets and resume my unrequited relationship with my bed.
The Sad Lychee (who needs to do something with her life)